Is this real?

Am I truly pregnant? You know we were not trying. I was just going in to see the doctor about the pain I was feeling. I was not excpecting to find out I was pregnant and especially with twins. I am happy though, truly happy.

Although I am happy I have found myself up late at night and wondering if this could possibly be real. Well duh!! I know that it is I have seen the twins both move and have heard one of their heart beats, the other one moves too much for us to get a steady beat lol.

Amazed is how I feel a lot of the time. As more and more of my friends found out they were expecting, I just kept thinking to myself , I wanna baby. Not knowing that I was actually pregnant. I am amazed that there are TWO babies inside me right now. I am also amazed that we are actually pregnant. I was thinking we would have trouble getting pregnant again. Its astounding that I didn't even know I was pregnant. It didn't even cross my mind.

Now though I am starting to get excited even though I am a little stressed with the thought of loosing these two precious gifts. We have started putting the nursery slowly together we are getting the walls primed for when we find out the sex of the babies and we will also be changing out the carpet to the room as well. I am excited to start buying furniture as well. But for now I am going to rest and stop blogging.

Unbelievable.

I'm sitting/laying down due to bed rest and still can't believe we are pregnant. It's just SO amazing to me. I also keep thinking, how was it possible for me not to know? How in the world could i have missed the signs? After all they were all there. Not feeling well, really tired during the weekends, unable to really settle on anything to eat. It never accured to me to even take a pregnancy test. The cats acting weird around me never sent any signals to me. Not to mention even the thought of twins that never crossed my mind. But now im learning all these things about pregnancy with twins and what to do after and how to breastfeed them its gonna be so different than when i was pregnant with sebastian.

Scary

The last few days have been such a rollercoaster. Being on bed rest sucks!!! But I will do what it takes to make sure my babies are doing good. Ya know having one day of bed rest always feels good but the second day is really boring. There is nothing to do and only so much t.v. and internet you can do. I don't think I have ever been so bored before. The best thing is that I am still pregnant.

Tuesday night we went to the hospital because i was bleeding VERY badly. I had also passed two clots that were huge. Doctor at ER said that we still had babies and that my cervix was closed which was very good news. He told me to take it easy and follow up with OB. I followed up and we got to see the babies again. Little squirrmers is what they are. Doctor recommended bed rest till next week to make sure the bleeding stops. Things look good the bleeding is slowing down and turning a pink color which is a very good sign. All i want is for these babies to grow and be healthy. I was so afraid i was loosing them it was very scary.

Twins

Friday, February 4Th 2011, I went to the doctor.


Before I continue let me tell you about the past year.


Right after Sebastian, my first born, turned one Ron and I had a discussion and decided we would try to become pregnant again. We started trying yet nothing happened. A few months went by and all of a sudden i had no period for about 2 months i was taking pregnancy tests every other week with neg. results. Finally I went to the doctor, it was time for my annual exam anyways. They did my exam and did another pregnancy test along with a blood test for pregnancy as well. Everything turned up negative.

One week later I had excruciating pain in the right side of my abdomen and went to the ER. They found a 6.2cm cyst on my right ovary. I then made an appointment with my doctor to go over what to do next. He put me on some medication and gave me some pain pills and i made a follow up appointment for six weeks down the road.

The middle of September was my next appointment. My doctor told me that the cyst had gone away on its own, awesome news. But i still wasn't having my cycle. So we decided that i would go on birth control to start a cycle. He gave me two months worth of samples of Loestrin 24FE. It jump started my cycle so that i had a period in October and in November. But when i went to actually fill my prescription we found that my insurance didn't cover it. So in December i talked to the doctors office and they put me on a totally different birth control one that totally didn't do anything. So for the months of December and January I had no cycle and started feeling extremely moody and depressed. Finally in January i decided i was going to take things into my own hands and change my life.

I got a personal trainer and changed my diet. I really started feeling good about a week into it but after the second week i started having this pain in the right side of my abdomen again. I just thought to my self GREAT not again. Not to mention that although i was working out and eating totally healthy i didn't loose any weight. So my trainer had recommended that i see the doctor to see if we could switch up the birth control as we were thinking that was the culprit of my non weight loss. Besides the fact that i was having the pain and i really didn't want to go to the ER again. So i made my appointment for Friday, February 5Th 2011 at 8:50am.


On Friday I let myself sleep in a little till about 7:30am and then got ready to go to the doctor. I was totally not excited to go. So i go to the doctor and see Pam at Dr.Shea's office. I talk to her about everything going on and she asks me. "Do you think you could be pregnant"? I responded with an "absolutely not" she told me that she would probably still have me do a pregnancy test and i told her okay even though i just thought to myself geeze not another test I'll need to fail. So she does a physical exam and pushes up on my right side of my abdomen and it hurt like nothing else. We had also discussed getting me a birth control closer to Loestrin as that is the one that helped my cycle the most. She told me after the exam to go ahead and get dressed and we would do an ultrasound to see if there was a cyst and if so how big. I go in the room with the machine and she goes out and tells the girls in the front to find something closer to Loestrin or a way that i can get it cheaper than the 90 dollars a month. while they are checking she comes in and lays me back and she starts up the machine.

She puts the monitor on my stomach and searches for the cyst how ever before we locate it she tells me "your pregnant". The only word i could say was "what"? as tears started flowing down my cheeks. She then told me it was twins. I said what again and are you sure. As she said yes she chuckled and i started bawling. She was very sweet and asked me if they were happy tears i told her yes and she gave me a tissue. She then told me that we needed to find the cyst which we did it was 5.4cm. But due to me being pregnant with twins there isn't much they can do about the cyst but hope it goes away on its own like the last one.

I walked out of the room in tears but extremely happy, as happy as when we found out we were pregnant with Sebastian. The girls in the front then started telling Pam i could fill out whats called a green card to give me a discount on the birth control and Pam told them it was a moot point and then whispered to me that she hadn't told them yet. I asked if she wanted to she said its your news you do it and smiled at me. I told the girls I don't need birth control anymore I'm pregnant with twins and started crying all over again and the girls in the front office started cheering, after they made sure they were happy tears.

And that is the story of how i found out i was pregnant with twins. =) the end and of course the beginning as well.......more posts to come