Being A Mother

Being a mother has been one of the most special things that I have done with my life. When I found out I was pregnant with Sebastian I was astounded that the lord thought I was good enough to become something so special. After the shock wore off I started wondering what I was getting myself into. How could I be a mother?


Thankfully because of Ron by myside and the lord guiding the way I have learned A LOT!!!



My son is the most important person in my life. ( Aside from the lord ) Every day since he was born I look into those beautiful blue eyes and my heart skips a beat.



I have my moments with him when I just want five minutes but when i have those five minutes all i wanna do is kiss and hold him. He is my little monkey and my buba. It always seems to keep me amazed at how much i love him and how much that love continues to grow. I am always surprised by how old he is already lol.



In the two years of being a mother I found that your heart grows, beyond meassure. That no matter what, you WANT to give your child everything THEY WANT. That it is a lot harder to punish them for things they shouldn't be doing. That although they may throw a fit that you wanna hold them right after wards and let them feel and know how much you love them.




I have found myself letting him get away with certain things like staying up late just because I want to be with him.





I have found myself stealing kisses from him and squeezing him tight just to make him laugh because it makes me smile. I am sitting here thinking that although ALL mothers and fathers give so much of themselves to their children it really is a selfish role. You pretty much make happen what YOU WANT to happen with your kids (of course until they are a certain age)

Now that he is at the age of 2 I have found im pregnant with twins and I can't wait to see what that holds for me and our family. I love my son and the one thing i have wanted to give to him is siblings that he can play with instead of always playing alone. I hope that one day my son is able to read any and all posts and blogs i write about him and know how special he is to me and his father. He has been the light of my life for the last two years and we have so many more to be had.