Is this real?

Am I truly pregnant? You know we were not trying. I was just going in to see the doctor about the pain I was feeling. I was not excpecting to find out I was pregnant and especially with twins. I am happy though, truly happy.

Although I am happy I have found myself up late at night and wondering if this could possibly be real. Well duh!! I know that it is I have seen the twins both move and have heard one of their heart beats, the other one moves too much for us to get a steady beat lol.

Amazed is how I feel a lot of the time. As more and more of my friends found out they were expecting, I just kept thinking to myself , I wanna baby. Not knowing that I was actually pregnant. I am amazed that there are TWO babies inside me right now. I am also amazed that we are actually pregnant. I was thinking we would have trouble getting pregnant again. Its astounding that I didn't even know I was pregnant. It didn't even cross my mind.

Now though I am starting to get excited even though I am a little stressed with the thought of loosing these two precious gifts. We have started putting the nursery slowly together we are getting the walls primed for when we find out the sex of the babies and we will also be changing out the carpet to the room as well. I am excited to start buying furniture as well. But for now I am going to rest and stop blogging.

Unbelievable.

I'm sitting/laying down due to bed rest and still can't believe we are pregnant. It's just SO amazing to me. I also keep thinking, how was it possible for me not to know? How in the world could i have missed the signs? After all they were all there. Not feeling well, really tired during the weekends, unable to really settle on anything to eat. It never accured to me to even take a pregnancy test. The cats acting weird around me never sent any signals to me. Not to mention even the thought of twins that never crossed my mind. But now im learning all these things about pregnancy with twins and what to do after and how to breastfeed them its gonna be so different than when i was pregnant with sebastian.

Scary

The last few days have been such a rollercoaster. Being on bed rest sucks!!! But I will do what it takes to make sure my babies are doing good. Ya know having one day of bed rest always feels good but the second day is really boring. There is nothing to do and only so much t.v. and internet you can do. I don't think I have ever been so bored before. The best thing is that I am still pregnant.

Tuesday night we went to the hospital because i was bleeding VERY badly. I had also passed two clots that were huge. Doctor at ER said that we still had babies and that my cervix was closed which was very good news. He told me to take it easy and follow up with OB. I followed up and we got to see the babies again. Little squirrmers is what they are. Doctor recommended bed rest till next week to make sure the bleeding stops. Things look good the bleeding is slowing down and turning a pink color which is a very good sign. All i want is for these babies to grow and be healthy. I was so afraid i was loosing them it was very scary.